the month that was

there had been a time when i was taken to calling him barbs, short for barbiturate. good thing the name didn't get stuck. but although him being called barbs had long been dropped, my husband still remains to be my best sedative.

he turned a year older six days ago, and i wanted to give him the world. turned out i couldn't afford the world, so he had to be happy with a whole box of mtg shadowmoor cards and a seafood dinner in a bistro reminiscent of a restaurant gordon ramsay is trying to breathe some life into.

on turning a year older, i did too. and it was spent with family and a few friends over an extremely nice soulfood-laden lunch that my husband lovingly cooked. spending it that way was wonderful and simple, a good way to mark the end of the year that had been; suffice to say that the past year had been one of the most eventful years in my life.

got married twice, got knocked up, traveled to the philippines and back, sidetripped to singapore, supported my partner in his jobhunting endeavors, discovered new places, delighted in new cuisines, watched a lot of movies, took on more responsibilities. grew up. a bit wiser now.

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but still a kid in a lot of ways.

to my absolute delight, mars snackfood australia has released mint m&m's! and hopefully, it will be produced as a regular option, much like the dark, crispy, peanut and almond.

i remember purchasing bags of the stuff in the philippines, hoarding, as it is only available during christmas or in puregold clark. im stuffing my face with little gems exploding with minty freshness and chocolate goodness right now.

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im on my fifteenth week and i have started to warm up to the idea of eating food again. i think it's about to be over, the nausea and vomiting. im starting to feel flutters too. the nurse said it may be just gas, but heck, i know my body and i know what gas is.

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and oh, we celebrated our first wedding's first anniversary a couple of days ago. nothing grand or spectacular, coz we're dirt-poor and saving up for a house that we intend to purchase in a few months' time. we just spent 48 hours together --- no work interruptions, no phone calls, no other concerns. it's just him and me.

the way it's supposed to be.